my heart physically aches, i seem to be knowing the reason.

I’ve got a box, in which I keep my whole life … every single note that I have … , it’s actually a yellow box ( Ghooti e zard ! ) , ..

The earliest one is for I when was 6, or maybe 7;saying “I Love You”.

my chest physically aches, i wonder if it’s my heart.

Days ago I found a note, written by me exactly 6 years ago. 

It says (obviously in persian ) :

“Something horrible happened today,

I’m supposed to be sad, but i can’t stop being extremely happy 

I wonder if there’s something wrong with me, but anyways I’m just extremely happy. happy.”

my heart aches, i guess i’ve no idea about the reason. ( I just pretend that I do )

It made me feel numb for the whole day. couldn’t even think or hear what people were saying. Couldn’t think.

my heart aches, though i guess it’s just physical.